Well it’s been awhile since I last posted. I’m not sure why other than I feel like a funk has been on me and honestly didn’t feel like I had much to offer anyone. Not that I am feeling particularly any different right now I feel like I need to do something because doing nothing is worse.
As I sit here today my state is literally burning up! We have hazardous smoke levels at our house and can’t really see 2 feet in front of your face. Ok maybe its a little farther than that but you get the idea. The smoke is really really bad here! I am so sorry for all of the people who have lost their homes or their lives. I’m sorry for their families and all the sadness they feel and for the half million displaced people in Oregon my heart is just heavy. I keep thinking about all of the fire fighters on the front lines and I can’t even imagine how they are feeling and I instantly get worried for them and a little anxious. I grew up in a fire fighter family and my oldest son is a professional fire fighter and my 2nd son is just starting his college career to become one also. So these times are really dear and near to my heart. I am fiercely protective over first responders and I believe in them and all they stand for and I always will. There has been a lot of negative media against them and honestly it makes my blood boil. Sure there are a few bad ones but people are sinful and so you will always get a few bad ones (no matter what profession). It’s called sin and free will but then grace enters….grace is extended to all of us even the bad ones. God will continue to purse even the bad ones as he doesn’t want not even one to perish. I am very justice driven so this is a hard one sometimes. Most times I find myself think man he’s a really bad guy and deserves eternal damnation but then grace enters… Sometimes thats a hard pill to swallow isn’t it?
This has been a really hard season for just about everyone I know. I can’ think of one person that doesn’t feel either sad, scared, angry, hopeless etc… this is where I have been landing myself and not really sure of what the future will look like or feel like. I am grieving what we once had and that honestly won’t go back to that way because well it can’t. It can’t because I believe the Lord is calling his people to rise up. He’s calling us to a different place and I believe he is preparing us for battle. Which is honestly exciting and scary because of the unknown but I have read the end of the book and God wins!
I feel like this may just be a bunch of rambling but this is what’s been on my heart lately. It’s time to rise up and step into what God is calling each of us too and watch what happens. What a time to be alive!!
Keep your head up soldiers together we can do anything…
Gina Marie 